Penny in Dr. Horrible says this to Billy at the laundromat when he's worried about joining the Evil League of Evil. To which he replies "not to me"
I chose this title because I've been thinking a lot about things and because there have been a lot of things happening in the last month.
Firstly, that mouse in my mouse selfies died. Cinnamon is no longer amongst the living. I really miss him, but don't think I'll plan on getting another mouse anytime soon.
Secondly, I went up North for awhile with two of my best friends. It was great and I feel a little closer to them than I had.
Thirdly, I spoke to one of the debt collectors on the phone for the first time in awhile. I have a lot of anxiety about things and no job so I've been scared to answer the calls. This one was important though, and I looked up their company and decided to go for it, especially because my dad told me they spoke coherently. (I have an issue with people that have heavy accents or lisps or limited vocabulary because not being able to understand someone causes me anxiety.) I feel like this is a small but significant step in dealing with my problems.
Lastly, I've been doing a lot of decision making and thinking.
Those pictures of me I posted recently? I'm not ashamed of them but they don't portray the image I want.
There are two people in my life who have these subservient views on life, and I was starting to think down that path. But then I remembered the pride I have in thinking differently. My rebellion, my independence, my ornery blasphemous self that doesn't fit in correctly and doesn't listen to stereotypes and all that... I'm proud of.
Without my differences I wouldn't be unique. "I am significant" Shouted the dust speck...
I need to embrace who I am and the person I was showing disgusts me. I hid it behind a wall of things though. I pretended it was for a noble cause. But it was not. There are better ways to portray it and so I will.